I am sure every parent wants to be a better version of themselves once they have children. I know I do and try my best to lead by example. However, all of us parents face daily challenges. Some might be small, whereas some are as huge as a mountain. That said, most of the time as a mother you priorities what is more important to do right now, later or sometimes in my case, never.
Before I had children there was copious amount time for myself. I could laze around the house in the mornings, enjoy a warm cup of coffee, make breakfast and of course eat it. Silly things I took for granted like doing my hair all pretty, color my face with make-up and change my outfit several time for the day, if the mood so pleased/teased me. If you read my blog Dealing with a Toddler, you will see that the latter is now totally my daughters game.
Since I’ve become a mother, I always end up putting myself last on the list. We all do it and that’s just human nature. I always end up eating last, when the food is cold. Most of the time there is no time to eat, maybe my child’s leftovers that I scoff down while clearing the table. Showers generally happen when all the kids are in bed, baby’s bottles have been prepared for the night feeds and leftover dinner has been packed away. By that time, I am so exhausted that I jump into the shower, quickly lather up some soap and practically half wet when I slide into my pj’s. When I had my second child, the first two months of his life I had a choice; personal hygiene or sleep. Sleep won 9 out of 10 times!
Now that I’ve calmed down to a “nervous panic” and pretend to be a bit more human, I do slap on some make-up from time to time. Just enough to look less like the walking dead and more like a well rested mom who loves school drop off’s. Thank you concealer and mascara! Although there are still most of the days where I would just prefer to stay in my pj’s and not even brush my teeth, I can’t and I don’t. All because I get pushed and motivated by my dearest little daughter.
She is growing up to be such a little lady and just loves to shadow me in the mornings while getting ready. This little person wants to dress up in her best dress everyday, braid her hair, put on her/moms make-up and do a little modeling twirl for her dad before we leave for school. Not only does she want me to do it all for her, but she pushes me to do the same. She pushes that I get into a dress, dab on some make-up and do the same little twirl for dad before we leave for school. Most days I simply don’t have the energy to do all of that, but because she wants it and pushes me to do it with her, I do it. After all of that when I get into the car and look at myself I do feel good about myself.
She motivates me to be a better person. She pushes me to be the mom I want to be for her and my son. For this I want to thank her. Thank you for showing me that life means more than pj’s. Thank you for being such a beautiful little girl who strives to be like her mommy, when mommy actually is striving to be like her.
I love you my dearest daughter and Thank You!